I grew up in a Christian family and have since young been going to
church every Sunday, attending Sunday School and singing in the Children's Choir. I was
thus at a young age already very familiar with the many "stories" in the bible
and Christian ethics. And also, of course, I knew God existed, I knew who Jesus was and I
knew what He did for me...well, He is the Son of God and He died on the Cross for my sins.
That's what my parents and Sunday School teachers taught me. Unfortunately for me then, as
life was pleasant and smooth sailing, I didn't see how God or Jesus had anything to do
with my life. Neither did I question or think much about these things that I heard from my
parents or teachers. These "data" merely remained in my mind as knowledge and
did very little to influence my life.
When I was young, I was no good kid despite my regular church-going. I was a tyrant and
bully at home and simply enjoyed being mean to my younger sister and brother. I was
rebellious and disobedient too to my parents. Even at school, I bullied my classmates. I
remember once, I bullied a classmate and was later scared and worried that he will report
me to the teacher. In my fear, I prayed really fervently to the God I seemed to know. This
God that I knew was good to me. He answered my prayers......the incident was not blown up.
When I was older, life was no longer so smooth sailing. I often faced many problems. One
particular night, I was very bothered by a problem and couldn't get to sleep. Worried and
frustrated, I started to think of things pertaining to life and its meaning. I then
thought, " If the God that I all along believed didn't exist and is merely a creation
of man's imagination, then I would be such a fool to spend so much time in church every
Sunday, doing things of no meaning whatsoever." After that thought, I sought to seek
the truth, to find out for myself what's the true meaning of life and if God really
existed, what had He to do with me. It was really not difficult to do that as I knew the
truth all along and it was just that I didn't relate the truth to my life.
As I sincerely and seriously seeked to learn about God, I found that He had been actually
waiting for me to "call upon" Him and establish a personal and loving
relationship with Him. When I responded to His call by "meeting Him daily" -
reading the bible and praying, I got to know Him better. He is just and loving, faithful
and strong. He is willing to forgive my sins when I confess sincerely and is also able to
help me live a victorious life. He is also my strength and my refuge in times of
difficulties (eg. my final year project). Everytime I cling to Him for support and
comfort, I experience His strength, faithfulness and love.
"From heaven, the Lord looks down and sees all mankind; from his dwelling
place he watches all who live on earth - he who forms the hearts of all, who considers
everything they do. No king is saved by the size of his army; no warrior escapes by his
great strength. A horse is a vain hope for deliverance; despite all its great strength it
cannot save. But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in
his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine."
Psalm 33:13-18
I now know that the God that I knew since young is the one True God and I am glad I belong
to Him. I hope you will know God too.
